sanity

when will it come?

this time I am free?

Is life a test of our defenses?
Must we wrap ourselves in these defenses?

we are more than a record of getting hurt

Not to say my pains don't stick with me

but damn,
I am more

I am a wandering soul
no home
and you are scared I will rob you
or your well being

frisk me
quiz me
look into my eyes and see if they speak of insanity

or not
maybe just leave me on the side of the road
hand out
looking for a ride

but you have a life
safe
where there is no one but yourself
where insanity can't reach
because there is no challenge to your own insanity

you see
this is wrong

there are no pains
only things that don't work in the direction of our own insanity
so yes, I am insane
but so are you
and you prefer your own insanity to mine

hence, the labyrinth of defenses

sanity is not protection of ourselves
sanity is reaching out
knowing you will get hurt
knowing things will not go our way

and by God, having the courage to do it anyway

or something like that
~joshua