Random Type

I wish I knew what I was going to say, but I have learned what i say is of little importance.

Why blog then?

I have no idea.
Honestly, I don't want to

but I am not doing this for me
I am an abstraction of you

RIght now you are giving me your life energy
your precious attention
in a way, you love me

what else is there?

I have a lot of thoughts and opinions
but I have a lot of faith
those are worthless

but I have faith in you
in the fact you are not worthless
and if you are out to discover life
I might be of help

in what way,
I don't know

I am not a psychic
and only a profit from the same world you stair at
I see it too
but differently
unless you see it as I see it
and that would be a conquest of me
over you

but you are still here
by choice

these variations are only of 24 basic letters
you are staring at concepts conveyed by squiggly things
called letters
and words
which are thoughts and emotions
perceptions

you are seduced by thirst
and I am a thirst quencher

you can not take what I say
for anything more than what I say

it is not more true because I said it
or because you listened
or I believed or you believed

it is all reduced to squiggly lines

this is just squiggly lines
nothing more

I took a walk
reading a book
while walking
it was a book on something I already knew
and I read it anyway
happy to find a place
to be verified
I am real
what I feel is real
not as alien as I thought
I exist

and I need that sometimes

but this world is not me
maybe this world is not here for me
maybe I am here for the world

and the world is bored

sink into the raging sea
drown

I am not at a lack of truth
I am surrounded by truth
it suffocated me

that is why I say drown

forget you
be me
forget me
be the lack of you
the lack of me

or something like that
~joshua