Technically

There is nothing to lose,
no such thing as loss,

There is nothing to bruise,
no such thing as cost

in a world of illusion
all thats One is brought

we only take what we are
enjoy the lot

Something to lose

if you fear too much
you have something to lose
if you have something to lose
you have too much

~joshua

Ego dies first

"This is my commandment, that you love on another as I have loved you. Greater love has no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends."
John 15: 12-13

ego dies first

My Creed

I write not for my satisfaction
not because I wish to convert anyone into me

I write because I care
and I want you to be you
and part of me is necessary for that

I am not alone
and neither are you

one love


~joshua

Be Your Enemy

we fear what wishes to change us
we are insecure of who we are

be your enemy

be what you are not
and you will cease to be nothing...
but fear

I in I

you are but an opportunity to be me
without you, my love has no force
no merit
and no value

Shameless

Until it's done, do no more. Be-come your actions
so that they are no longer done, but felt.
Tilt your head to the Sky
and your longings to the floor.
Walk naked in air fully enveloped in light.
Expand your thoughts to nothing
and lend your being to the stars
Very few can do this on earth.
And you could be the first.
Shameless
Shameless

wIshes to a traveler

I would ask you to write me
and let me know you are still alive
but that might be too much

for you...

I wish you well on that journey
even if that journey does not include me

and I wish you happiness
even if your happiness does not include me

yours and mine

you may own something
therefor I can not own it

if you are eating a cheeseburger
then I may not eat the same one

by this method much of life is based on not allowing others to have
since, if they do, that means less for us

but there are ways around this

there are somethings that sharing does not detract from
and can even make them stronger

if you put your money in the bank
you have money in the bank

but......

put your love into the world
and you have the world

~joshua

Been

In the presence of peace and happiness, what are people supposed to DO?

When their need for conflict, confusion, anger, doubt, and query has been surpassed by a prowess far beyond anything ever known, what is there left to DO?

Aren't we supposed to be...being.

There is absolutely nothing left to convey other than love and light once peace and atonement have been achieved. There are nothing but compliments and accolades left to convey to our fellow brothers.

Who doubts God besides many?

Can one who knows God befriend someone who enjoys more thoroughly to doubt God?

To respect anothers' path one must be steadfast to his own but silently know they both are one. When there is nothing to speak there's often little to DO. Just be. Be still. Be at peace.

To see the light in even the most lost soul is often all that can be done until he understands this himself. Nothing he does or thinks can compromise Gods gifts to him.

How to walk

teach people how to walk... not what path to follow

what you walk is your own

where have been, maybe no one will follow

and where you are going, even you do not know

but you have feet and you will walk

others have no choice but to walk as well

you may walk to go somewhere
you may walk because you are lost
you may walk to escape
you may walk to arrive

but you will walk

walk in love

and what is the beauty of love?

nobody knows

except maybe we have feet

if you wish to teach

do not teach where to walk
or why to walk

remind people they are walkers
and that it is ok to be a walker

or something like that
~Joshua

Glorious Blaze

Although one feels, or even thinks he knows he is dying, I would argue that he is in fact learning how to better live. He is forced into presence and easily disregards typical distractions. He is forced to dig deep to his essence in search of the pulp truths of love and perception. As he ponders most everything most healthy people take for granted, he is soon able to reveal the love and truth of perception to the world in a glorious blaze of miracles on his way to the next level.

Although some would say he were falling behind in the game, he is well ahead of it. He may at times feel as if he hadn't been given the choice, but in fact, if you were to ask his higher self you'd discover he did, he just has no present recognition. He has agreed to force himself deeper into himself while he's here to help everyone else. When facing death, he is able to achieve much more than the average healthy person distracted by the world.

All is truly in divine and perfect order with the dying, but very few understand it. This slow death of the human ego is the birth of life and beauty as his eternal self emerges on earth in fabulous fashion on his way through it. It's a glorious blaze indeed.

Exercise in the reality of human existance

pick a street corner
and pick an evening with nothing other to do

stand or sit

and watch everyone go by
everyone with somewhere else to go
something else to do
that does not require you

remember you are not important to them
they have no care of you
self-satisfaction is all they seek

but you don't have to participate
resist the temptation to get up
and to do something to distract yourself
from the truth
you are not needed by the masses
you are nothing
useless

do this as long as it takes to accept your place

for me, this practice took about a year

then once you gain an understanding of your value to others

fight it
fight that in yourself
utterly destroy it
rip it to pieces
and start over

stand on that street

and realize one thing
"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"
and look at every face
every body
every passing entity
they are nothing more
than the manifestation of the desire for love and attention

the rest is up to you
you can figure where this goes
but you can't fully understand it
till you do it

"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"
"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"
"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"
"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"
"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"
"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"
"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"
"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"
"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"
"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"
"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"
"this person too desires nothing but love and attention"

or something like that
~joshua

I might set out to betray some of my ideals

I believe everyone has the right to their own reality
and I don't wish to invade

but maybe you just wish to understand me?
maybe I am part of your reality?

who am I to say?

I am not the guardian of what you choose to be

so I will write of some things I have learned
there are some callings

I have to
I can't resist

I am weak

so with my apologies to reality

I will proceed

or something like that
~joshua

sanity

when will it come?

this time I am free?

Is life a test of our defenses?
Must we wrap ourselves in these defenses?

we are more than a record of getting hurt

Not to say my pains don't stick with me

but damn,
I am more

I am a wandering soul
no home
and you are scared I will rob you
or your well being

frisk me
quiz me
look into my eyes and see if they speak of insanity

or not
maybe just leave me on the side of the road
hand out
looking for a ride

but you have a life
safe
where there is no one but yourself
where insanity can't reach
because there is no challenge to your own insanity

you see
this is wrong

there are no pains
only things that don't work in the direction of our own insanity
so yes, I am insane
but so are you
and you prefer your own insanity to mine

hence, the labyrinth of defenses

sanity is not protection of ourselves
sanity is reaching out
knowing you will get hurt
knowing things will not go our way

and by God, having the courage to do it anyway

or something like that
~joshua

Service

what have you served lately?

maybe your happiness is not the end-all!
maybe your happiness is not as important as you thought!

it is the mind that wishes to take, not the heart
the mind is in conquest of this reality
and dominating others, sucking them into our reality
a game

I am real because others believe in me!

yea?

well, I am more real if I enjoy a game of monopoly
and what is drawing others to us, but a game?

I feel better when others follow me

but no!

there are the watchers
you won't see them coming
because they don't require you
they don't try to change you
they don't ask from you

they find beauty in your natural existence

without advise
without the useless exchange of information
they don't affect the world

they let love be love
and love is silent

and this is how it serves
sometimes the world is fine as-is

to love without request
this is different

and not acknowledged very often

I don't want to change you
because I love you

or something like that

~joshua

Belief

Belief is the most powerful force in the universe
It rules nations and individuals
Religions
it constructs the individual nature of our core
it derives meaning
it negates meaning
it is the most unreal realness

yes it has no form
may or may not be repeatable
may be a whole or a part
it may even not exist

but we believe in our beliefs
and this is a cycle that snowballs

"I am what I believe in"

yea?

what's that?

is that what you always believed in?
and is that what you will believe in till the end of time?

no?

why not?

is not truth static?

how can something true change?

how can we feel determinately one way
then not?

don't we characterize who we are by why we believe in?

what if our beliefs are not a static truth?
and not shared by science or others?

what then?

can we construct something concrete?

if we hold a hot potato and then drop it
can we consider ourselves holders-of-potatoes?

maybe it is a war without form
it is not what you believe but how you believe

what form is your belief in?

and what grounds do you have to believe it rests in......

it is not who you love
simply that you love

or something like that

~joshua

Random Type

I wish I knew what I was going to say, but I have learned what i say is of little importance.

Why blog then?

I have no idea.
Honestly, I don't want to

but I am not doing this for me
I am an abstraction of you

RIght now you are giving me your life energy
your precious attention
in a way, you love me

what else is there?

I have a lot of thoughts and opinions
but I have a lot of faith
those are worthless

but I have faith in you
in the fact you are not worthless
and if you are out to discover life
I might be of help

in what way,
I don't know

I am not a psychic
and only a profit from the same world you stair at
I see it too
but differently
unless you see it as I see it
and that would be a conquest of me
over you

but you are still here
by choice

these variations are only of 24 basic letters
you are staring at concepts conveyed by squiggly things
called letters
and words
which are thoughts and emotions
perceptions

you are seduced by thirst
and I am a thirst quencher

you can not take what I say
for anything more than what I say

it is not more true because I said it
or because you listened
or I believed or you believed

it is all reduced to squiggly lines

this is just squiggly lines
nothing more

I took a walk
reading a book
while walking
it was a book on something I already knew
and I read it anyway
happy to find a place
to be verified
I am real
what I feel is real
not as alien as I thought
I exist

and I need that sometimes

but this world is not me
maybe this world is not here for me
maybe I am here for the world

and the world is bored

sink into the raging sea
drown

I am not at a lack of truth
I am surrounded by truth
it suffocated me

that is why I say drown

forget you
be me
forget me
be the lack of you
the lack of me

or something like that
~joshua